The Rape..

The Long Goodbye ..

As the sun sets on my dead body ,
I feel the cold crawling up my spine 
And the diminished lights of the city ,
Slowly go black .

This is the life I couldn't live ,
And that wouldn't let me die .
This is the life I never had ,
And that others have taken from me .

As the moon rises over my dead body ,
I feel that I have failed .
And the hope that kept me going ,
Slowly fades away .

This is what I have become ,
And what I didn't choose .
This is what they made me ,
And what I never wanted to be .

As the sun rises over the dewy grass ,
They find my dead body hidden .
And during all this time ,
No one even noticed I'm gone .

They find the wounds and the cuts ,
And the track of scars on my skin .
And autopsies reveal my inside is empty ,
Filled with pins and knives and razor blades. 
I never even lived ,
I died so long ago..

The Rape ,
The pain,
Sharp like razor blades,
Piercing my skin,
I swallowed it,
With bleeding eyes..