Lost

No Answers ..

I wonder what made you chose me ,
What did you see in me .
Just an opportunity, an easy prey ,
Or had you watched me before, planning 
To undress me, to hold me down with sweaty hands .
To force yourself upon me ,
To ruin my innermost soul with your every touch .

I wonder what you saw in me ,
A little girl with blue eyes, a little shy 
The school nerd, hiding behind books ,
Or just a piece of flesh for you to use .

Did you see the bloody print of your hand on the sheets .
Did you ever hear me say No ,
Were you satisfied after you left me lying there .

I wonder if you remember what you did 
Do you think back of it with regret and sorrow, guilt ,
Or with lust and that unbearable smile .

Did you know you would come back to haunt me ,
Did you think I would forget ,
Your moaning left me deaf ,
All the things I saw made me blind to the beauty of life .

I've wondered about questions never to be answered ,
For far too long ,
Now I'm moving on, I won't let you rule anymore .

It still hurts but all my hate is gone ,
Yes, I will always remember ,
But this is to you who raped me, who made it all so difficult: 

I won, I'll win in the end..

Thankiew

Ratri Ray Sen.